empty-nest syndrome
My parents have left for vacation and I'm running the house for the next week or so. Its much harder than I expected. They left very early on thanskgiving. I was still kind of hoping we could have dinner with the grandparents but that didn't pan out. This was the first thanksgiving where I cooked all the food, too. Granted, most of it was pretty easy to make, but the menu was rather large: turkey (x5lbs), baked yams - not the store-bought syrupy one, stuffing, potatoes and couscous. Turned out pretty good for my first time. I always associate this holiday with large family meals and this time there really wasn't much in terms of a family. Maybe next year.
The thing that bothers me the most though is that I expected to really get a lot done without anyone around. That has not been the case at all. I'm looking and finding all sorts of reasons not to do anything. Yesterday, I've decided to just drive around for a while for no reason at all. Because I didn't want to stay home and work. Frustrating, how little self-control I have in this thing.
Part of it has to do with the class I'm taking now; I don't find the assignment interesting in the slightest and when I make suggestions to the prof. he ends up shutting me down and telling me my ideas are not within the scope. I'm writing a learning agent to try to learn how to play othello. I'm really interested in seeing if heuristics that we all have about how to win at othello have basis in what the self-learning agent learns when it plays the game. Apparently, that's no longer ai, but is data analysis. FU, I just want to know what happens. (My theory: most heuristics have no basis)
I'm thinking about quitting grad school again; it just doesn't seem likely that I'd make it in academia and I already put up with a lot of shit at work and don't want to have to do it at college.
I'm also thinking about writing a musical about life as a career corporate programmer. So take that as you will.
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