So it looks like I might be getting a condo. Not sure why. Parents think its a good investment, I think they want me out of the house. Certainly reasonable, considering my advanced age and lack of personal initiative. Its just that I can't really afford to buy anything. What if I get fired? I dream about that all the time. How good it would be to get fired. To get all my books and just go home. I could take a few months off to relax; learn to make pancakes, go on walks and volunteer at the shelter. I used to read....a lot. Now, I've several stacks of book, organized by genre and priority, of stuff I need to get through.
Its a real shame about Affliction falling apart. They did a lot of things wrong but damned if they didn't put on great cards. What makes that even more outstanding is knowing how limited their resources were; all the top-shelf talent was in ufc and they basically had to scrap by with second-tier fighters. I'm rewatching the first 2 broadcasts and I love what they've done with it; the visual graphics, the camera-work, Bas on the commentary, Big John McCarthy in the ring.... Its sad to see them go.
The plan was to get home early so's to have some time to relax. Instead, I stayed till forever and a half at work tracking down this one little detail. The plan was to furthermore goto the gym later and then watch dlm later and goto sleep later but still somewhat reasonable so I'd be only a few hours late to work, which would make up for my overtime. Instead, I've dawdled and now it looks like I will not be watching any dlm. No time. Alas, that show is coming to an end for me. Again. The second season is actually much stronger; the first season had more big idea episodes where everything came together and there was a tight message behind everything. The second season is a lot sloppier but has better character development. For example, the first season was almost entirely the main character and the supporting cast were totally ignored. They didn't have any character to them until the second season. In particular, the Mason character; I think the whole first season had maybe a dozen scenes where he had any speaking parts. In fact, the first half of the show, his job in every scene is to smirk knowingly at the camera. The second season, he not only has speaking parts, but also is allowed to be his own personality.
For some reason, a lot of my co-workers end up telling me their life story. Completely unbidden, at that. I don't know what it is about me that inspires this confidence/disclosure; I certainly don't reciprocate in any way. Nor do I encourage it. And yet it keeps happening. These are their stories.
Its amazing how little it takes to be better then most people at your job. I'm perpetually impressed by this. There's the habitual lazy bums, the plain stupid and the hard-working stupid. I'm by no means a smart person but working 3-5 hours a day, I'm able to accomplish what most people get through in a week. What a sorry state of affairs; it depresses me greatly.
I think I could get used to and even like NY. I can already do certain things like a new yorker, cause I grew up in another big city. I can cross roads w/o stopping for cars, I can move through crowds, I can ignore people and blend in, etc. The things that still bother me are the smells; everything smells like fish or people. Everyone rushes around and sweats, and the sweat permeates everything; like some kind of vile miasma rising up from the marshes. The whole city is covered with it.
In a few hours, I'm going to get up and travel to NY for a hydroponics seminar. It promises to be quite the adventure.
Went out with the x-roomies today. Everyone is disgruntled; everyone wants a do-over in life. Nobody likes their job. Everyone wants to do over the college experience. I myself would like a do-over starting from 5th grade. I would literally do everything different. All the things that you think are important; aren't worth jack. And all the things that you ignore, those are the things you regret for the rest of your life.
Ok, rethinking this whole lifer-programmer stratagem. I think I really truly hate it now. I've decided I'm never going to get my MS in CS. Never ever ever! Its such bullocks; totally does not interest me. I mean, some of that stuff is great but I'll never be able to use it for anything so why bother? Its just a humongous waste of time.
I've no time today; alas. Realized how we're all aging and beginning to look like stereotypical old people. A girl I sort of know from a friend; she's pics up on facebook. I'd say she's cute. Was looking through them today and in certain light and a certain angle, she looks eerily like she's 50. As in, I know exactly how she'll look in 20-odd years. How creepy is that? I know this because she resembles an old lady who I've worked with, from the right angle.
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